Less than stellar
Sometimes, I’m not quite all I should be. Today was definitely one of those days. As usual, I didn’t sleep well last night, which started my day off poorly. From there, I got through the work day. I never really felt like I was 100%. I gave it what I had, but … well, yeah.
Dear State of Michigan,
I gave you all I had today. I promise.
Sincerely,
Darrell
After work, I went out for my run, and didn’t feel much better. I was completely exhausted by the time I had covered half a mile. Had I not been running with others, I’m not sure I’d have gotten through the entire run. I did have to run the last mile by myself, and ran it at a decent clip, but that only made up for the really slow miles I had in the middle.
7 miles, 1:09:10, 9:52.8/mile
Once home, I tried sooo hard to crash. I should have been out cheering for either of the friends who were singing tonight … but my body just couldn’t do it. Exhaustion is powerful; sadly, it’s cutting into my time with my friends. I should have sucked it up and gone out, but … fail. I should have gotten more done before my Tylenol PM kicked in, but … fail. Bottom line … fail.
Darrell:
You did not fail. Your body simply told you it didn’t care what you had to do or wanted to do, it wasn’t going to let you. Exhaustion is a very strong and crappy thing that can happen, and there really isn’t much you can do to fix it except sleep, or drink a ton of caffeine all day and crash as soon as you hit the bed. I know you’ve been having trouble sleeping and that doesn’t help but you definitely did not fail you just did all that you could. Just try to focus on that sleep, maybe take it easy and spend time relaxing before trying to just jump in bed and fall asleep. There could be several reasons why you’re not sleeping so you may want to try to figure that out. I really hope your sleeping improves and that you don’t beat up yourself so much because of it.
Thanks for the kind words. I don’t entirely agree that I didn’t fail. I expect myself to beat exhaustion. It’s what I do, ya know?